Ordinary girl grown up in two worlds. Try to master life and somehow be a benefit to human society. German by passport, English by language, Indonesian by soul, Muslim by heart.
Bismillahi-rahmani-rahim, Haven´t uploaded for some while. And to be honest not produced any new writing work lately. But I found some old ones that I´d like to share with you. The following is a topic I struggled with for quite a while. Though it is some time ago I wrote, I is still actual in … More Depression – A lack of faith?
This time it´s a story that happened to me some time ago. A friend from abroad who used to volunteer in the city I used to live at that moment. Thinking the whole story through our relationship is kind of funny.
He is one of my male friends where I believed, it is possible to have a friendship with a boy. He would never fall in love with me. Turns out I was wrong. … More Don´t make feelings complicating things
Dengan kepergian kesedihanku Dengan sembuhnya lukaku Air mataku mereda Dan kata-kata pun berhenti mengalir dari otakku Dengan hilangnya dia dari pikiranku Inspirasiku pun terambil dariku Luka yang sembuh berdasarkan kehadiran seseorang Kehadiran dirimu yang telah mengisi hari-hariku Yang telah memberi warna dan semangat baru kedalam hidupku Hingga aku bertanya kepada diriku Mengapa aku … More Tinta Darah
There are this people in life you fall in love with in the very simplest way. Not the kind of love that is in need of owning. Not the kind of love with the mean of being together for a life time. But much more simple. People you simply fall for because of the words … More Loving
A friend of me asked who I would really be. I was not sure what to answer. So I started thinking about it.
I think it is really hard to describe who you really are cause therefore you have to truely accept all fecettes of yourself first – the good and especially the bad ones. … More Who am I?
Bismillahirahmanirahim March 15th 2019 – The Day of the Christchruch Massacre The news I woke up with this morning. Thinking I was still dreaming. But then I wondered, why shoul I dream about such weird news. Turns out, it was real. Totally confused after the voice said “shoot down at friday prayer”. What jumat prayer? … More Out of the Tragedy
Everyone has a dark side. Even the most happy, most perfect seeming people. Yesterday we had a get-together where we talked about Tazkiya – the purification of the heart- and had a psychologist as speaker. The session started by a self-task: Look back at the last two weeks and think about how your relation was … More Reconnect to ourselves
Bismillahirahmanirahim Dear kamu, yang hatinya belum bisa lepas dari seseorang yang telah menyakitimu. Setelah kamu memberinya seleruh cintamu, ia justru menyia-nyiakanya. Dan kini kamu masih mengharapkanya, masih memikirkanya, masih saja menginginkanya. Hingga terlelap setiap malam dengan bantal yang dibasahi oleh air mata. Untuk apa kamu masih menangiskan sosok lelaki yang sama sekali tidak berusaha untuk … More Sepatah kata untuk kamu yang telah tersakiti
Bismillahi-rahmani-rahim 2018 is over. A year full of…everything – happy, sad, amazing moments. A ton of new experiences, new and old people and places. 2018 was definitly a special year for. Thus I thought it deserves a special entry. First, why do I call it “The Dream Year”? Because this year was supposed to make … More 2018 – The Dream Year
Bismillahi-rahmanir-rahim When people say “Friends are the family we choose for oursleves.” This is what I experienced the last months. Being far from (my original) family, meaning my parents, those friends became the most important people in my every day life. Let´s say it with a quote of one of my favorite youtuber: “Some of … More The people that keep me alive
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